it's been long since i last blogged! Been busy busy working ever since i came back from my korea trip! pictures all on fb! Been a very fulfilling trip for me!i wish to go on more trips! wanna go to exotic places! next trip with my ballet mates!

been ballet-ing quite extensively these few days till my thighs and calves hurts!
Resorted to taking cab to work on several occasions! Life's pretty mundane! Still suffering from my korea's damage!

Well, i've learn to enjoy life n spend more time with my family! being single is gd like i always say, but yeah at times i really wanted someone to be there for me(but well, that's like minority of the time). really envy those ard me who have a caring bf n all, but well of cos the risks will outweigh the benefit! I guess it's really hard for me to settle down after so long!

Sometimes i really wonder, will i ever find a person that i m willing to settle down for. Maybe my expectations are too high! Eventually as u age, relatives n ppl ard has been asking when will i get married, when will i find a bf to spend the rest of my life with. It's ironic how i used to hate those who cant commit themselves n at one point of time, even tried my best, hopefully he will commit to me. but eventually i failed badly, n caught myself in this situation. Now i realised y u didnt wanted any commitment, n i guess i must really agree with u. i gave in to that vicious cycle.

N because of this, i missed out on the person i really love.I didnt know losing him had such a great impact on me! well, i didnt literally lose him because afterall, it was a mutual agreement to stay as fren. i tried my best to keep that distance away from u. i thought i've succeeded until that fateful day when i saw u at phuture again. The memories suddenly filled my mind! i tried to move away but u eventually found me near the back bar n joined me till the end. it's like I'm back to square 1, moving but i'm going nowhere! i only have myself to blame. we would have been tgt in my own fairytale. I'm sorry. I'm trying my best to be friends with you

Maybe it's time i really reflect on myself, to settle down n commit myself.

i wish it was true, i wish we could go back to the way things were, i wish you wanted me again, i wish you needed me still. I really miss everything that we used to be